Chapter 5.25

Being pregnant with 2 little kids at home... hmmm. But I still call myself lucky because I don't have to work hard. I have a wonderful husband who provides everything we ever need. :)

Rams is a big time artist. Now that he's shifted to the room next to ours, guess what's the first thing he requested for? An easel! My baby is now growing into a big boy! He draws practically anything that comes to mind... while Russ... Russ is as chilly as ever... he's the quiet type, more like Is than me.

We haven't got any gender check for the twins yet, we want them as surprise. Well it's magical... and I certainly won't mind doing this again and again.

Okay gotta go... Gotta feed Russ.

Chapter 5.24

Finding out baby #3


So last week after my last posting, I threw up magically for 3 times in 1 hour. The night before we had raw tuna for dinner (or sasheemee, as the Sapanese calls it). But I didn't suspect anything except that, after the unpredicted future turbulence that we've been through. I started not being able to take any dinner that night.  I really thought it's a bad food poisoning that I was having. Is was of course forcing me to go to the doctor, but I didn't want to.

The next day, while sitting for breakfast with Rams, he suddenly blurted out what he's recently learnt at school about shapes. "Mommy you're round." I was startled. I couldn't have picked up any weight while busy with the kids. Moreover I flied to Saris quite a few times to take care of mom. My suspicion of being preggo started to rise. To be honest I have lost count of when this baby could have been conceived. But, pfuh, I took out the last 3 testpack from my cabinet. And I said to myself, whatever it is, I wouldn't be disappointed.

5...4...3..2..1....... It showed negative. I didn't bother to take out the next or next next testpack. It'd be the same, my heart said. Despite the umpteenth time let down by the testpack, I still couldn't help feeling my heart sink whenever I saw it showed no positive sign. I don't know why. Maybe I've just really not given up yet.

That evening, while Is was doing his duty to throw away the bins, he noticed my testpack in the toilet! Gosh I totally forgot to throw away that properly. No, I didn't want him to know and disappoint him too. We've kinda not wanted to talk about it... Then he confronted me, "Honey, is there something wrong with ur health recently?" Then I started telling him everything, and couldn't help but to cry a little bit.

But he said he had this strong gutfeel that we might be pregnant for real this time. Because he noticed that my mood hasn't been at its best... so I agreed to his suggestion to visit the doctor (just a doctor not an obgyn) first thing in the morning the next day. He agreed to take a day off just to take me there too, because in case if it's not a baby thing, I might be real sick too - looking at how many times i've puked in few days.

At the hospital, I was 'forced' to go for an ultrasound because doctor "suspected that there's something in there." How scary has that sounded, you tell me! It could be a malignant tumour or something. Gosh. And then...

We heard heartbeat, the heartbeat that we'd been so familiar with. :) We both teared. Good news is, there might be a chance of twin babies too! Wheeeeee.... :) At that time, I totally forgot about wanting it as a girl or a boy, as long as he/she/they are healthy and complete in there.

We came back bringing that news to the boys... of course they don't understand. But we're gonna be a huge family from now on!!!!!

Chapter 5.23

Hi peeps... long time no update. I've been busy keeping up with the two kids. Now that Rams is almost going to enter primary school, everything starts to get busier. Is there already a third kid? Nope. We've been trying with all methods and myths, nothing worked out. Sighs.

But we're not giving up yet... meanwhile I'm just trying to concentrate on my housewife-ing task and bringing Rams up to my very best. Is is entering a dusk age and I'm not getting younger either... it may just be hard biologically. I haven't thought of how I'm gonna sort this out, but I'm sure everything's gonna be alright...

How's Russ? Russ has been awesome and smart. He picks up what his brother does really fast. It's kind of worrying sometimes when he tries to speak like "what the bark is that, mom?" pointing to a tree... i really thought he's talking about the 'bark'. Hmmm.

so people, what are your tips in conceiving a girl? 

Chapter 5.22

We are proud to announce the birth of our second son: RUSS CHOPIN.

The labour was supremely easy for me, almost zen-like. Thank goodness Russ is a healthy happy baby. Unlike Rams, he has a fair skin. Healthy and handsome.

As I finished my last push, what Is blurted out was "Oh well honey... seems like we're going to try harder next time, huh?"

:) :) :)

Here you go a picture of Russ... with Rams inside the nursery I dreamt of. The doctor shared some tips to conceive a girl. We shall see how well it works out!! ;)

EEeeeek. We need another nursery room, seems like!

Chapter 5.21

But of course even the flowers will wilt. Is and I are back in row since we discussed about the sleeping arrangement for the new baby. I would love him/her to sleep with Rams, which also means forking out some moolah to build the nursery room. I think that'd be good for the kids to sleep together, it leaves them room to bond. But on the logical side of Is' head, that not only means forking out money to build the room and stuffs, but will also drain more of our energy (especially of his) to having to watch out to the kids' cryings/calls anytime in the mid of the night. I'm a terrible mother when it comes to keeping a watch when already asleep. Meh...

It's not easy really... once you get married, u're just flooded with... *beep*. Fortunately though I'm blessed with a loving husband. Seeing me frowning for one week is enough to bring him down. He decided to build up the nursery. Yipee!!

Chapter 5.20

Doctor confirmed my pregnancy. I couldn't keep a secret more than a day, so I really needed to take Is and begged for his second chance. Afterall we still have another 7 months to mend everything back to where we were. But he totally couldn't picture any better picture... sighs... which got us into a row.

me: Whatever it is, Is, this is our baby and I'm keeping it.
Is: It is easy for you to say but if you remember how much it cost us to have Ramstadt, I thought u'd be more understanding, at least this time. We can always have babies anytime we want.
me: You're growing old... soon a senior next year... and I need to have a daughter to keep this pact alive. I know it's gonna be tough, at least for now, but we'll survive.
Is: *walks away*

 

I think that's our first major row ever. I felt so sick and so terrible for the whole day after he left for work. Pregnant, sick, a quite bratty son. But Rams totally made my day in the afternoon... he could do his own potty now! That's a huge relief and we could save so much on diapers already... Throughout that afternoon I talked to mom. She took a day off so that she could console me via chatrooms. She understood the motherly feeling towards the seedlings inside... it must be hard to give up. She said if financial wise it's giving us too much a hard time, she's willing to sell off her Bistro and give us the fund. I felt so touched and I really wanted to give her a hug at that moment. 

At that moment too, I felt really useless being a woman with no career at all and having to depend on solely my husband. I wish I made another choice... It's suicidal, i must tell you. January couldn't come today cos she had a plan... 

Is came home bringing a good news, one of his proposals was bought by the client. That couldn't really help much but that meant a lot to him, it gave him hopes again. When he reached home he apologized for being so unthoughtful in the morning and started to ask about little baby... :) My sickness felt lifted off.

Chapter 5.19

I've been ill for the past 3 days now... Is is so much worried that i could be pregnant again but I tried to console him that i couldn't be so cos I've been so tired taking care of Rams. Rams is still on his sleep-during-the-day mode that it's really not helping me to recover. Sighs. A worried and stressed husband + a bratty kid... *_*

I tried to fish Is' reaction about me being pregnant again. I mean, I really look forward to having a daughter, at the end of the day, 'cos I wanna keep this pact alive. But he threw me such a harsh reaction, "Sorry honey but I think we might give this embryo up for this time." I'm tremendously saddened. I'll need to go to the doctor tomorrow, for sure. I can take this day off 'cos January is willing to babysit Rams. Isaiah hardly has a time off now, not even on weekends. :(

Chapter 5.18

Quinn somehow refused to come back. She has decided to become a full-time homemaker in Saris. With her son's condition of being slightly mild autistic, I think that's the best decision too. Is is still disappointed, regardless of how many times I told him that everything's gonna be okay. No business will ever cruise smoothly.

Rams makes me into a sleep deprived mother. He chooses to be awake at night and completely silent during the day. Awesome much indeed. Except that the neighbor's house being renovated, I can listen to every vivid movement of the workers planking and screaming. Uggggh!

Mom has gone back to Saris this morning. Aunt Persey plans to come to help me but I'd rather her not to since Quinn's baby might probably needs more hands than mine does. It's tough alright but I'm thankful that January is willing to come in after her school to keep an eye on Rams while I try to catch some sleep. Glad that she can accept me as his father's wife... I think i'm falling sick... The day started with some vomitting. Anything I put in just automatically rejected itself out. *turningintozombie*

Chapter 5.17

Our little bud is born today... Ramstadt Chopin. He's quite a steady baby but he needs to be fed A LOT that the nurses start to worry this baby might grow obese. Heeheeheeheehee. Daddy has been taking care a lot of him cos mommy wants to rest. This is definitely a handful... Is wants as many kids as possible... I think I want to stop after having 2, perhaps. So I'm really relaly hoping my second one will be a girl. (Don't tell Is).

But I dont think we'll be adding anytime soon. Is' business is not doing as well as it used to at the moment. One of the shareholders suddenly decided to back out and start another one with their competitor. How shallow!! Grrrr. Seems like all he's after is just the money. Is might look at asking Quinn to come back because she's the best negotiator. But that would probably take effect only next year after Quinn's bud is born. 

Chapter 5.16

Entering the third trimester is... phew. I start to discover many more discomfort nowadays, but still totally enjoying it. Is and me agree not to find out the gender till he or she arrives. *so excited* So in anticipation, we decorated the nursery room in green. I of course want a girl... someone to go shopping with *winks* and Is is totally anticipating for a boy. Hahaha. Whatever it is we're enjoying this very much. Mom is flying back next week to start taking care of me and teaching me things i wouldn't know how to do. I will definitely need her anyway.

January has also been quite a help lately. In times when she finishes her class early, she would swing by bringing me some food to eat. She also told me that she's been seeing a guy lately... Seems like Is will be expecting not only another kid, but also grandkid! Wait, that translates me becoming a granny too, doesn't it. :o

Okay... time to rest... Expected delivery date is next Wednesday. I can't wait, little one.

Chapter 5.15

Is and I have been in thought about renovating our house because the last time was... zillion years ago. I don't mind having more water around our house. Like little ponds or something like that. But Is wants to keep it to have more garden all around... Arrrrrgh.

Pregnancy update: Still in the first trimester and my tummy is simply not showing much progress I'm worried. Boohoo. But tomorrow first thing in the morning I've already got an appointment with Dr. Chunk... so ah ha.

Sleeping and eating wise has been absolutely zen for me though. I can't wait till the baby arrives...

Chapter 5.14

Peeps, we're pregnant.... :) This is such good newsssss!!!!!!!!! Predicted that the baby was conceived right the day before we flew over to elope. Aaaaaaaaaah! :)

I've been banned from working at all (working for me: fishing and gardening) because according to the doctor I have a really weak immune system that could affect the baby. Okay!!!! Whatever it is for the baby I'll do it!!! Isaiah will be soooo thrilled!

Chapter 5.13

We're married today!! It's ultra romantic, thanks mom and Auntie Persey for arranging this!!!! [hugs]

Quinn also announced that she's migrating over to Saris. She met this guy at a cafe while having her hot chocolate and she said she's totally falling for him... Oooooh well, at least mom and auntie Persey are there to give this klutz a good guide :P Seems like I'll be flying over to Saris quite a bit in the future. I'm gonna miss all these 3 ladies!!!!!

Our flight is tomorrow morning 8am. It's kind of a rush cos Isaiah has a meeting to attend to. Now that Quinn is resigning, he'll need to find just as potential replacement as Quinn. I'm totally supportive of you, dearest husband!

Aye aye aye... Mrs. Isaiah Berdington from now on. Awzaaaa! <3 okay need to catch some sleep... terribly exhausted these few days.

Chapter 5.12

Mom spilled the news to my grannies... sighs. As expected they wanted it to turn into some sort of royal wedding now. NO I DON'T WANT THAT... So we decided to elope. To Saris to meet mom and Auntie Persey along with Quinn. My most favorite people in the whole wide world.

Baby making project has been halted. We let it flow naturally when the time is right.

Divorce progress = DONE! =)

I'm off to pick my dress now. Aye aye aye.

Chapter 5.11

ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED

I called mom. And we told her that the wedding is gonna be in 3 months she's sooooo excited. Quinn is definitely my maid of honor. Oh Jee... what's next? How do I wanna plan this wedding???????????

ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED ISAIAH PROPOSED

Chapter 5.10

SURPRISE! Guess whom we ran into in the obgyn? HIS EX WIFE. She IS pregnant AGAIN with ANONYMOUS' kid. It's an awkward situation for both of us. We're both caught pregnant and getting pregnant. LOL.

I left the both of them to talk in the corner. As soon as they're done I asked Is how it went, again Is said, "still... she refused to talk." I WAS LIKE ????????! I yelled at her. I lost it totally.

Me: "Hey, Imelda. Could you please sort this out? This thing between you and Isaiah?"
She: "You mean you're waiting for us to get divorced? Why? Cos you've carried his baby, huh? Sl*t! You're still supposed in school like my kids... but look at you, straying like a chicken."
Me: "EXCUSE ME? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY? At least i don't get pregnant around like somebody does! And cheating a guy for a good 20 years that the kids ARE his kids when it's actually NOT! Where's your shame, SL*T?"
She: "EXCUSE ME?????"
Isaiah: "Ladies... ladies..."
Me: "No, Is. I want this to be done right here right now. If we could sort this out peacefully and in a right way, why should this always be postponed ALL THE FREAKING TIME?"
She: "He still loves me! He texts me everyday he still loves me. Are you now surprised, young sl*t?"
Me: "No, Isaiah will NOT do this. Please pass on your another cheating exercise to someone else. Please, Imelda. Leave us alone."
She: "Okay, I only want the house and the 3 lands that he's bought over the past few years. It's for the kids."
Me: "and the anonymous baby inside you? ONLY IN YOUR MIND. We're pregnant too! And we're planning to have many kids in the future. So no, you can't take away his belongings while you've been cheating on him."
She: "Is that true, Is? That you guys are expecting baby?"
Isaiah: "Yes."
She: "Without marriage, really? What are your parents gonna say? Shame on you."
Me: "HEY HEY HEY! Let's just get this sorted out the fastest we could okay."
Isaiah: "I don't mind giving you away my current house, if it makes you leave us alone and sign the damned paper."
She: "No."
Me: "What do you mean 'NO'?"
Isaiah: "You're pregnant with someone else's kid. I am expecting a baby with someone else too. You've cheated on me for god so many years, and I've stayed faithful throughout. I still love Jan and Reed all the same. Where's your shame, Mel?"

And she broke down crying. She's scared of what the future holds for her. Anonymous' baby and two other kids who are barely doing well in school. In the end, all three of us agreed on one decision, that Is would keep the house, but he will feed on that family till Jan and Reed find a job themselves. Signing paper is scheduled next week. WOOHOO.

So back to the obgyn. According to the doctor I'm in need of more greenies to eat. But that isn't really a damned big problem anymore now that the signing-the-paper is almost finalized. :)

Chapter 5.9

Dear diary,

I have an urge to tell you this. I have to tell you this. I've been keeping it for awhile it starts to suck me up. Again, Is & his (ex) wife's divorce hasn't been progressing. It's stopped. Eventhough her condition is actually perfectly mint now. That's worrying me sick, and so is the same for Is. Everytime he tried to call her up, she either hung up on him, or just simply refused to talk about this matter. So we're smelling something's going on.

Big suspicion is, seems like she's wanting Is' house. Which is quite a spacious one. In short, she wants to dig everything out from him. Oh yeah have I told you she finally really wanted to take both of her children with her? So she uses them as her reason. How sickening!

So we worked out something. We're trying to get pregnant. Ugh it's so hard for me to get this out, but please hear us out. It's for all our good sakes. We want to have a kid so that she wouldn't have any other stronger reasons to dig all the moolahs out of Is.

Now the thing is, apparently getting pregnant isn't something easy huh!! To be honest we've been trying for months now... but... :( Why. And we can't be married yet either because then all faults would be on Is' side. It's a really difficult situation I hope somebody could help us out.

I have an appointment with the obgyn tomorrow... we'll see and pray that it'll all be okay. I'm worried sick!!!!!

Chapter 5.8

So if anybody has heard anything at all, yes, my mom has decided to leave this town with auntie Persey. Technically according to this legacy, she's not allowed to do that, so she promised a comeback. When Quinn and I asked them why, they only said they needed a time together to spend at their dusk age... They're only flying to Saris, to dad's home... and spent quite a few months.

On one hand i'm cheering with glee because of the freedom, on the other hand I think I'm gonna really miss mom. She's the sole person who tells me to do things and stuffs. So anyway... the departure is still next week... I'm feeling mellow already.

On the lovey-dovey department, Is and I are totally doing great! I cooked him breakfast this morning. I told mom there's no class so I was just gonna stay around... heh. =) But he gotta quickly sneak out before anybody came home. So it's a short fun. I really really really do love this guy. Awh!

His divorce stage hasn't moved on in a while. Apparently his (ex) wife is sort of falling sick... which made things so much harder to move on from now. ARGH.

Chapter 5.7

The confession.

Mom: Quinc, you gotta tell me... are you seeing anyone darling?
Me: Oh gosh mom what's with youuu?
Mom: I know what it feels like... just like your father and I. Totally flushed, innit?
Me: Hmmmm.
Mom: So who's the guy?
Me: Isaiah...?
Mom: You mean Isaiah across the street? January and Reed's father?
Me: Mom, he's NOT their kids. Long story. But yeah it's him.
Mom: Are you serious Quincey? He's double your age! And he's married!!
Me: No mom he's getting a divorce. Again. Long story. We're doing well mom, please don't ruin this.
Mom: I need to get to know him. NOW. I'm not sending you off to some jerk...
Me: Mom, he is NOT a jerk!!!! Please keep the judgmental thoughts to yourself okay? I'll see if he can come over tonight. He's really a good guy trust me.
Mom: whatever...
Me: ????

Isaiah decided to come to my place for dinner. IT IS SUPER AWKWARD but thank God Quinn was there to kind of melt everything down. Auntie Persey was totally cool with him though, she's all like so what's the future holding for you guys? But mom was like... when's the divorce getting finalized and are you sure about this relationship?

Mom's always the serious type... The night got late before we knew it so I asked Isaiah to stay for the night. Of course without mom knowing it.

Chapter 5.6

He introduced me to January and Reed this evening after dinner. Both of them went, "what? hey! we went to the same school, didn't we?". I had to uncover it at that very moment in front of Isaiah! Gah I was so worried what he could be thinking at that moment. "Is she too young? Am I like a pedophile now?". But guess what, in front of the kids he addressed me as his GIRLFRIEND. Jan and Reed are totally cool with it too, cos technically they're NOT Isaiah's kids.

Things are looking better and better of course. He told me that he's never experienced such kind of feeling before. I'm so so so happy... he mentioned about me moving in with him. But i told him that's certainly not possible, because of this legacy pact thing. I wanted to ask him to move in with me, but I'm afraid that mom won't approve of it. She hasn't known about our R/S yet either...

Should I tell her?

Chapter 5.5

What better describes having known the love of your life? Yes the sweetest dream at night that followed after! I'm all amazed by Isaiah, the way he talks, the way he behaves, the way he dresses.

He's just so so amazing I couldn't believe it. Despite whatever his wife has done to him, he's willing to let go so easily and willing to take care of her kids. Why her kids? Cos it turns out that those are NOT even his kids in the first place! He's just trapped into her scenario until both kids turned five. Brava to that lady!

They're filing a divorce *yay! what?*.

This morning mom also asked something really really suspicious. "Are you seeing anybody? You seem happier". I couldn't say anything... because she would preach on everything about Medical school again. So I told her no I didn't. Phew.

Chapter 5.4

Speaking of... that guy from neighborhood, I finally got to know his name! No I wasn't friends with neither January or Reed (they're new here). But apparently, Quinn happens to know Isaiah, that's the name! Best of all, they are working together on a special project right now, some sort of campaign for the next election. Quinn is supporting Isaiah as a candidate by doing up all the communication stuffs. So yeah. Quinn smelt something fishy as soon as I asked around about Isaiah, but so close that we are, she could definitely tell that I have a thing for him.

According to Quinn though, Isaiah isn't really that bad a guy. He just happened to got married to his wife at really really young age (19!) because his wife got pregnant... sighs. Whatever it is, I told Quinn that please introduce us to each other by hook or by crook. I am really really interested in him.

On the academic side, despite mom's insistence, I'm continuing my Fishery class. I have had more than 10 little aquariums at home. All of the fishes were manually caught through my own study. I'm planning to breed them and crossbreed too. And all the carcasses go as fertilizers for my plants. I'm also researching on plant study, concentrating on fruit trees. It's really really interesting.

And guess what, Isaiah loves gardening too! *beaming eyes*

Chapter 5.3

I'm kind of in a row with mom. I told her I loveeeeeeeed fishing and gardening so much but she just wouldn't budge and kept telling me to go to Medical school. I really miss dad :'(

While on the other hand, auntie Persey has been advising me to get married soon. I can't imagine what Quinn is going through with mom like her! I don't even have a boyfriend yet!!!!!!

I like this guy from the neighborhood, but he seemed so out of reach! Hahahaha. Okay first thing, he's married. (I KNOW), and secondly, hm, his wife is sort of hanging out with other guy too out there. Best part, they have two kids who used to be my classmates; January and Reed. Too complicated? Very, no?

Why is he so attractive to me? I don't know really... I just have a thing for mature guy I suppose. Eeeeek!

Chapter 5.2

Some said that I'm fortunate to have been Jack's daughter, I don't have to worry about money, I don't have to worry about not having the best in everything in the world. Well, guess what dad, they're right. It's so shocking to know that you're no longer breathing as I stepped into your room this morning. But I will remember your advice always that I should go for what I really want in my life and that I should respect everyone's decision and quit being a rebel.

I love you dad. As i'm writing this, mama is still mourning over this great loss. She told me you're the highlight of her life and you're the best thing that has ever happened to her.

Chapter 5.1

Hello everybody. Quincey here!

I don't know how to start writing this.. er.. Anyhoo, I got a pretty bad news to start with. Daddy's health has been worsening, he's now in the hospital on IV and mama has been the one taking care of him every single day. So proud of my family!

I couldn't really go to visit him everyday cos I'm facing finals at school. Just in case u're wondering, I'm taking Fishery lesson. Yes it happens in Sims world, we are fabulous like that. Heh.

Alright gotta go back to studies.. Quinn is shouting...

Chapter 4.30

Our young lady finally turned 20! :)

Can you still see the sisterly love? It's so lovely innit?

Without further ado, I'd like to announce that this journal will be handed over to Quincey... this will be my last entry... take care.

Chapter 4.29

Quincey won an international competition in fishing today! We're all so proud of her!! :)

Daddy is bringing her to Saris to celebrate... and jokingly we asked if she'd like to bring along her boyfriend. She was like "What boyfrieeeenndddd??" We know that she's been seeing this guy named Kale from her school. But knowing that we wouldn't approve it, she's denying the fact. Well Kale's father is the one that Pepita got married to. You know, to avoid complication.

Anyhow... she's been such a grown young woman. She's turning 20 soon. Wow. Has it been 20 years alreadyyyy?

Chapter 4.28

So sorry for the lack of writing. Jack's health hasn't been at its best. He fell sick shortly after Quincey turned 12, heart disease it is. The diagnosis from doctor has been all good though, thank goodness.

Quincey is now a bouncy teenager who can't sit still. AT ALL. Strange how Quinn and she could be such good friends. We can all definitely see the sisterly love in them. Quinn is a delicate woman who wants everything to be done properly, and boy when she speaks, the whole world just wants to listen to her voice. Look at Quincey. We made her wear dress (cos otherwise she's best friend with the baggy pants!) and there she was running across town like nobody's watching.

And did I tell you when she was young, she thought that Quinn was her mommy? We never applied that kind of buddy system to them, but it just kinda ran. Funny, cute, and it's happening. ;) Quinn has been engaged to this wonderful guy from the neighborhood, Phil, and they're marrying next year. As decided by Quinn herself, she's moving out from this house as soon as she gets married. She would really love Persey to come along with her... but maybe only after she gets a grandchild for Persey as a bribe. BTW, aunt O passed on 2 years back because of old age. Pepita was down with depression, but I guess it just ran in the gene that she got married shortly after, to a married man. Oh well I've got nothing to say. So now the house is only the five of us. It's lovely.

Chapter 4.27

One blink of an eye, now Quincey is already at 4th grade. Boy is she such a mischievous kid! She's born with adventurous trait that she inherits from Jack and she has a big flair for fishing! I guess that runs down from my dad... Jack's saying to put her in fishing competition and see if she could win something. I told her that school would still be her priority though. She's not one of those Ivy League kid, but she's pretty brilliant for her age. She's been saving money to buy more aquariums... I can't decide if it's cute or what.

Chapter 4.26

We're back from our Saris trip.

Jack initiated another baby while we're there, but I told him no. He's at his ripe age and Quincey is growing up, I wouldn't have the strength to carry another one... Thank God he understands.

Quincey is learning how to talk now. For a toddler at her age, it's amazing what she could already say... "Maamaa no blohkolee.." She hates veggie. Dislikes is too mild a word! =) She occasionally asks about her grammy and grampa, so we brought her for a visit to her grandparent's.

Jack's brother just had a triplets a while ago so obviously they are more fond of the triplets rather than Quincey. Well it doesn't matter. I'm only doing my job as a mom. Quincey is excited for her first nursery class next week. Me too! :)

Chapter 4.25

We lost baby 2.

Work stress was a huge burden for me because I had been absent from it for almost a year and getting back to it was quite difficult for me. Team reshuffling seconded why, because I now had a rather uptight team to work with.

It happened last month. I guess I will just have to learn to let go. Maybe it's just not meant to be. We just found out the sex of the baby too, it's another girl and we'd planned to name her Querra. Be a good angel now Querra. Mommy and daddy already miss you.

Our family is in deep pain and mournful moods... Jack is taking me to Saris again next week to refresh. I've already decided to quit my job too. This is for the best.

Chapter 4.24

As if one baby was not enough, here I am already with another Jack-ling inside. Currently 5 weeks and growing :) I decided not to pamper myself much with this second pregnancy, I go to work as usual. I believe the positive element will help to ease all my sickening morning sicknesses away. What's wonderful of all is I don't need to hire a babysitter for Quincey because I have aunty O, Pepita, Persey and Quinn who would take turn to take care of her. The house will be crazy mess if we added another Quincey by next year. That's for sure.

Jack is a bit less busy at work so he's been training much in the gym room. He's reaching a ripe age soon so he just wants to make sure his health is at prime. Welcoming baby two really helps everyone to act more positively *chuckles*

Persey and auntie O have been having rows against one another. It started with Auntie O's opinion on Persey's decision to send Quinn to business school. She kept on saying that Quinn should have her own right to decide what she wants, not what Persey wants. Well, I have not much say in this because I don't want to seem like I'm on anyone's side. Quinn is a brilliant kid at school and she's apparently doing well in her Business course. I don't know what is the big trouble for Auntie O, perhaps according to her Quinn should not follow such a ubiquitous role so it's easy for her to find a career later on. Anyhow, I hope they will cool down soon because it's rather stressing me.

Chapter 4.23

Being a mother is really such a beautiful gift. Quincey is a bit of a crybaby and is quite persistent with things that she really wants. I guess this runs in the Chopin legacy ;) But I've really been enjoying motherhood. Breastfeeding her just feels so amazing to me. I'm thankful for Persey's existence in the house too, she's been through this so she knows more than me. Initially Jack's mom suggested us to have 3 babysitters just to take care of her; one to care about her food nutrition, one to care for her hygiene, and the other one to decide what type of fashion she should be wearing. It's... too too much, no? Anyway she herself hasn't even come once to take a look at her own granddaughter. I guess that's why Jack is a little bit oblivious to his parents...

That being said, Jack has been a wonderful husband and father. Though he has to work till late almost every night, he always tries to be with us on weekends. It's terribly hard for me when he's not around, especially at night. There were many times when I reached the point that I felt I couldn't take it anymore. Quincey can be quite difficult sometimes... but she's still my precious daughter. I'm grateful for her presence every single day.

Oh btw, I did change my hairdo. Enough with the long hair feminine look, time for a change :)

Chapter 4.22

Finally I'm back to writing this journal again! It's been months, pardon my absence but my pregnancy was really too much for me to handle. The fishing routine that we did quite helped a bit, and I'm really grateful for my husband Jack who's been with me through all these. Despite all the hardships though, the delivery was really smooth. My water broke as I was gagging out during one of my morning sicknesses, I felt so liberated!

Jack quickly drove home and brought me to the hospital. Persey was out for a training during the week, so it's really only Jack. Pepita and aunt O were just plainly not amused. Who cares.

It's a baby girl! Quincey Chopin... Welcome her, people. :)

P.S.: If other women are having post-natal depression, I'm having post-natal euphoria. :) Now I can eat up to my stomach's content! WoOohHoOoooo!

Chapter 4.21

Entering second trimester only makes me feel more horrible. Every morning is started with morning sickness, and it goes on for not only once, but couple of times till the afternoon. I could impossibly eat anything. This sucks. ;(

Doctor said my condition is pretty bad for a pregnant woman, thus he issued me a certificate to state that I'm not fit for work till I give birth. Therefore, I've been stay-at-home mommy-to-be... I know my job could be very demanding, but that's the only way for me to spend my days...

Now the only thing I look forward to in a day is just when Jack comes home and Persey to cook us dinner. According to Persey, one therapeutic way to ease my pregnancy obstacles is by going fishing. Something that I've really never done at all in my life. So apparently Pepita inherits that talent from our dad, so she's bringing me to go fishing this weekend along with Persey. All three of us are close, but there's still an invisible barrier between Pepita and us. I hope it'll slowly subside.

Chapter 4.20

Due to some carelessness and too much of passion and playfulness, hereby we announce:

WE'RE EXPECTING.

I knowwwwwww that I just mentioned a week ago that baby was not (yet) in our agenda, but who can help the newlywed when it comes to such kind of thing? Though it's rather unexpected, we're happy to the max nonetheless. This fantastic news comes in a package with other good news. I've just been promoted to be the Vice CEO of the company! Woohoo! They tripled my salary and decided to give me extra off days for the year. :)

Remember how I changed 5 wedding planners a month ago? I was sooo caught up in anxious and angry mood almost everyday. It's not their faults, because they're the top-notches in town. I guess I should've known it earlier that I was already pregnant with this little Jack-ling inside. I couldn't eat well, in fact I lost about 3kgs prior to the big day (all in a month!) and I got lethargic really easily. Persey had been telling me that I could be preggo, but I kept defying her words because I always thought we had it safe (yeah only safe in my own mind apparently) :P 

This is exciting. ;) Btw, it's been growing inside of me for 10 weeks now. Another 30 more to go.

Chapter 4.19

We're both back to work today, after having 3 full months off.

We decided to postpone our honeymoon to maybe next year, cos we're just done with one not long ago and now just want to concentrate on our jobs. Our resolution is to make it to the top level in our careers, which means more moolah and more opportunities to have fun in the future ;) Baby? Nahhhh not in our agenda yet. Enjoying our newly wed chapter at the mo.

Quinn is entering high school now and while she couldn't determine what major she should take, Persey suggested her to take up Business. Because that's what both Persey and Uncle Ocean are lacking, knowledge in business. I think it's quite a good idea.

Chapter 4.18

WE . ARE . MARRIED! WoOhOoOooOoOoOo.

Tomorrow is the celebration at Jack's place. And as how 'authoritative' his parents could be, he's asked to change his hairdo. Something neater and, i feel that he's looking hawt with it ;)