Chapter 3.13

Mother had a quarrel with Odelia this afternoon.

"Delia" is how she's used to calling her. To mother, Odelia has been more than just a niece. She did nurture her a lot when she's a baby, and she paid for all her schoolfee when she grew up. In short, she's half my sister, that's how she's treated her.

This morning, mother was just casually teasing her why she's been painting 'gloomy' art. Not sure if it's just her hormone acting up, "just shut up, Nala. For once please let me do my own thing, okay please?"

Knowing my mother, she certainly wouldn't give up when something's not right. "Excuse me, Delia? What did you just say? Is this what I've grown you into? Could you please for once look at me when I'm talking to you?"

"Yeah, and what now? You're not happy with me? I can leave this place as and when you like, Nala. I'm sorry but I can't fulfill your dream to be like your doctor daughter who got herself pregnant with don't-know-who."

"ODELIA! Please watch your mouth!", says mom. Then Odelia ran away and stayed at her friend's place. In midnight she came back, just like how she's always done.

Gees, now what if mother really asks me what she had just said if it's true. Damn!

Chapter 3.12

It's a girl! Decided to call her Polly Chopin.

Robi had been with me throughout the whole delivery. I was passing motion then I felt my water broke! But he insisted me to remain calm. He drove me to the hospital, and within an hour, Polly was born. Yes, that easy.

Mother is so happy, and so is her uncle Ocean too

Robi and I always take turn to take care of her at night. She's so like my mother, the stern and stubborn one! Gees. Not sure where it comes from.

Chapter 3.11

Robi found a job! Yay yay! He's accepted to work in the Law Enforcement field. Good! :) Every afternoon he will make a cup of tea for me to sip, bring me books, and try to chill together with me. Every night before we get to sleep, he will always talks to my tummy, advising the little one inside to behave while mommy's sleeping. So this is what future mommies feel like. Kind of good :)

I've been told to get a rest from my workplace, because it's just really about anytime now. Doctor said my pregnancy has been very smooth, because I've always exercised whenever I could. He said this could really help to smoothen the delivery later on.

Alrighty... we're off to buy a crib now! Just me and my husband, Robi! :)

Chapter 3.10

I'm ultra happy as I've just found out my bestfriend, Lillian is also pregnant! And we're both 2 months along! We can't stop kidding each other we'll be seeing each other's faces while we're "pushing and blowing" inside the delivery room. Hahaha!

But she's one lucky woman. She's married to the Landgaarb who's notoriously wealthy, and most importantly is she is deeply in love with the man she married. Good for her.

She knows well what I'm going through, afterall she's been my bestfriend eversince we stepped in college. She told me to learn how to let go and I must start anew. John is seeing her little sister, by the way, and she kind of leaked it to me that they're breaking up and he is moving overseas to start a clean slate. Again, I don't know how I should react. I could only wish time could be turned back before I had any seedling inside of me, even way before I knew Robi.

"But honey, you guys are not gonna work it out anyway. He's such a jerk and you're not. Everybody knows that. You're such a fine and articulate woman who only deserves all the good things in the world that he won't be able to provide. Odetta, come on. You're married. Enjoy your marriage." - she told me.

"Lil, you won't know how hard it has been for me. He's my first love. I did many things together first times with him. Yes he hurt me along the way, but I'm still the happiest to be with him."

She could only shake her head.

Chapter 3.9

The morning sickness has started to kick in. Every morning when I wake up I will throw up so badly. And I will need to standby all sorts of snacks inside my bag wherever I go. Gees only had I know pregnancy is so suffocating... But doctor advised that this should be bad for only the first trimester.

Robi gave me a little sort of good news. He told me he would find job. I took the chance to explain to him how important a job to us will be. Our baby will not be fed only by breastmilk. He too will grow into a toddler who will soon need some sort of nutrition beneficial for his growth. Not to mention babysitter. Not to mention daycare, childcare, etc. We shall prepare for rainy days...

As advised by the doctor too, I've been exercising a lot. Lucky my mother managed to build a little gym room at the back of the house. She's been my bestfriend. To her I've always consulted all my pregnancy problems.

 

"I can't believe you're such a grown up lady now, Odetta. And how lucky you are that you've found your the one and build a family together with him."

If only you knew, mother...

Chapter 3.8

I took an MC today because my fever spiked up last night. Robi was really worried, but I guess he's just more worried about the little seed. He still hasn't found a job. Ridiculously he told me he would want to be househusband after our child is born. I tolf him off that's really really unacceptable. Mother won't like such decision. And if there's anything, it's me who should be a housewife.

Why is my life such an unfinished puzzle? I really envy the kind of life Grandma Marie and mother had.

Anyway, done talking about me. Ocean has started work today, as a Fans in the most well-known music industry here. Happy for him. As for Odelia, she flunked one of her subjects, so she's gonna retake it and will be finishing only next year. Poor thing, but who's to blame when she's really such a party nuts? Aunt Nadine doesn't seem to care much already on that kiddo.

Chapter 3.7

I had to lie to my mother about all the secret relationships between Robi and I. I told her that we love each other so much that we decided to get married as soon as possible.

"Don't tell me you're pregnant?", she suspected. "What? No! Of course no, mother!" I had to lie. Sighssss. Thank God that this little seed is only about 1 month old. Mother insisted to invite all the friends we know, all the family friends, etc, and that, includes John. But he decided not to come, he text me saying that he needs to run some errands for his sister. Well I am not sure how I should react, really. I've decided to trash him off from my memory, afterall.

After the "I Do" is exchanged, I quickly rushed back to bedroom and get some rest, leaving only mother to entertain all the guests. I've been too worn out... mentally and physically.

Chapter 3.6

This morning while having breakfast, Aunt Nadine snapped at me. "Why are you eating like a turtle? Quickly gobble up your food. You look sick, what's the matter with you? You've been sick lately." Geesh! Odelia too has been sticking her nose a lot into my life lately. "Ods, what happens? How are you and Robi? Are you guys together?"

It's really sickening. Really really sickening.

I went to the gynae today, and yes, I'm pregnant. I guess I had no time for drama but to call Robi and keep him informed of this. I was totally opened when I talked to him. "I know this must have been very hard for you. If your family ever finds about this you'll be the sole blame for all the problems and your divorce. But let me tell you, it's totally up to you, Rob... Regardless of what it is, I'm keeping this baby inside me."

Without saying anything, he quickly rushed to our home, and hugged me and said, "I'm proud to be the baby of our child. I love you, Odetta. Now, will you marry me?"

It's like the most unromantic proposal ever on Sims world, but who am I to say 'no'? This seems like the best choice for now.

For once, I feel that my world has truly fallen apart. I shall put John far from my list. I will have to forget my youth for awhile, and welcome my newly-wedded husband into my life, whom I'm not sure of if I can love.

Chapter 3.5

I'm feeling terrible. I just woke up from a terrible nightmare. I was holding Robi and I's baby in my hand, and at the same time I saw John bringing a flower to my place about to tell me that he would like to get back to me. It's horribleeeee. I'm very fearful and stressed up right now. I'm afraid of falling pregnant, and I still hope for John to come back to me. I called Robi 5 minutes earlier, but he didn't pick up.

I guess the first thing I'm gonna do tomorrow is to confirm if I really am... preggers. I really really really hope I won't be, though honestly we did it at the worst time ever. It all started when I went over to his place. His wife and daughter (er.... yes. I left out this important part in the very beginning) were away to visit his in-laws. It started from a glass of wine he poured for me. As always, I was very depressed when I sought him, and he's always been there. He told me to talk about it over wine. So we did. One glass after another, it led to a kiss. He told me he loved me but I can't remember what I replied to him. Then we just cuddled and started to make out on the sofa. One thing led to another and there we had it. He said he hadn't felt that good for such a long time, I told him, me too. And all the warm caresses from him felt nothing like John's. Nevertheless, I guess I've been yearning for all those touches for such a long time that I did agree to my action to let him do it to me.

Come to think of it, I don't really love him. In fact, I don't at all. For one, he has a family of his own, and secondly, I still cling a hope on John.

But...

Chapter 3.4

My mother confronted me today.

"Odetta what do you think you're doing? Haven't I told you to stop seeing Robi?"
"Mother, he's just a friend. What's wrong with having a friend who happens to work as a maid for part-time? That's how you and dad met and you did great both as a parent and couple."
"That is the thing! I don't want the history to repeat. You won't know how hard it is to face the society who keeps prejudging you. I've gone through it and it's pretty depressing."
"Mom, but Robi is just a friend..."
"You really won't know how things will go, O. He phoned me earlier, a courtesy call I should say, asking me if it's okay he dates my daughter."
"Wh... what?"
"Yes, he has developed a feeling for you. I can't tell him no, can I? Because I don't wanna condemn your relationship, if turns out there'll be one in the future."
"Did you say yes then?"
"I didn't. I didn't say anything."
"So?"
"You really got to think about it, O. It's a future we're talking about."
"Mother, I love him too."
"But I thought you're not over John, are you?"

.  .  .

Robi and I did 'it' last night. Gosh I'm scared. And I'm saying thing that I don't think I mean to say at all... Gosh...

What do I do?

Chapter 3.3

My hardwork eventually attracted the eyes of my supervisor. She took me to meet the CEO of the hospital to confirm me as a permanent staff. I brought home this news to my mother in order to cheer her up a little bit, but that seemed to be no avail. I understand what it must have been like for her, having to lose the one and only you've loved truly in your life.



The same applies for me and John. I don't know which one is worse, because John is still alive here in this world, only that she's with another girl. Often when I went to the bistro where we first dated, I could still feel how warm his hands when touched mine. I still remember the chocolate lave cake that he fed me, which melted all the way down to my throat. I couldn't have felt any more in love than that.








Not having any sibling of my age, I tend to confide more in my newly found friend, Robi, who came and part-timed as a maid at our place some time ago. He's few years older than I am, and perhaps that's why I feel that I can share more things with him. My mother always restrained me from talking to him, she said she wouldn't want the history to repeat by itself and soon becomes a culture of this legacy; dating a maid, that is.

But so much so, I never think it's that bad to talk and befriend a maid. A maid is also a profession, what sets it so different from a Medical intern? Or any other job in this world, really? Nonetheless I don't want to argue about that with her. I secretly communicate with Robi. In the weekend when I feel vexed I will give him a call and we can just go swim together, if not go fish together. He has a secret obsession about the water, I wish I know why because he doesn't swim. He can't swim. LOL.

Anyway, yeah. I'm still all bitter about John. A lot of times I still wish he could call me on my phone.

Chapter 3.2

My father, Mason Chopin has left us forever this morning. He chose to leave the hospital and get home in order to rest peacefully. Prior to his departure, we all surrounded him, having our hands in hands singing joyful songs while saying prayers, just to let him know that he can leave peacefully.

In my eyes, he has been a great father. Partly because I'm the only child in the family. He was never quite the kind of father who spoiled me like nobody's business. He taught me how to become a person who carries substance. Though he has a background of only being a service man, he truly carried a certain dignity with himself that everyone looks up to. He can always get along well with everyone he meets.

Your presence will be truly missed, father. And I love you is what I meant to say to you all these years.

I have two grievances this week. I'm still crying over John, and I can't help it. When I'm struck by all the memories, I will drink a lot at the minibar. Before work, after work, before going to sleep, etc. Memory of 5 years, how is that ever easy to get out from this mind?

Chapter 3.1

Hello. This is Odetta writing.

I guess before I start writing this journal further, I will need to recap on all the family members who are under the Chopin legacy, and updating on what each of us is doing now.

Let's start with Nala Chopin, my mother. She has retired from her job a month ago to take care of my father, Mason Chopin who has fallen sick due to dusk age. My mother is an amazing woman whom I highly look up to. Her career record at the place I'm working at now has set the benchmark for some if not all of us to follow. She has also been a great supervisor for me in my career and life.

Next, my aunt Nadine Chopin. She is a great and beautiful aunt. She has 2 children with her husband, who is Ocean Chopin & Odelia Chopin. Ocean Chopin is next to her on the following picture. Aunt Nadine has never worked in the record of her life. She really does love her family and dedicating herself for the family is what she does. Ocean Chopin is 17 years old this year and soon is going to university. He is a very timid cousin of mine, but he does play the guitar really well. He gets scared very easily, and that's why sometimes Odelia and I like to make pranks on him. Nonetheless, I love him very much like my own brother. Next is Odelia Chopin, who is 16 years old this year but acts older than Ocean Chopin. She's a true art connoisseur at such early age. She pays for her daily expenses by painting. Having said that, she has the most characters in this family. She throws tantrum very easily as easily as she gets amused.

 

And very lastly, a little piece about me. I am currently still interning at my mother's ex working place, the Sims hospital. I am hoping to get a permanent job as soon as my internship is over by the next 3 months. Practising my logic skill is what I always train everyday together with my mother. I have a pretty good time at work and I truly love where I am working at.

In my past time, if I'm not found reading book in the library, I will be out partying with friends. What a contrast of personality, you tell me. I attended a party last night at the beach together with all my ex-coursemates. And I met John at the party, who had filled my college sweetheart story for 5 years. We broke up because she left me for his new girlfriend, Amelia. To be frank it's really sad to see him again. All the resentments are buried inside, as much as all the love too.

He said his apology that this had to happen. But shouldn't be too dwelled on it, should I? What has to happen has to happen. :( I'm crying as I'm typing this. I still remember vividly how we met, when he told me he loved me and asked me to be his girlfriend... All the memories...

Chapter 2.22

Odelia and Ocean... two little rascals who are driving the entire house crazy now, well in a good way I suppose. Seeing them grow in lightspeed makes me feel that I'm really aging. Isn't it time for me to pass over this legacy to yet another generation, in this case is none other than Odetta Chopin my one and only daughter? :)

She too, has grown into a matured beautiful lady. Unlike me, she carries the daintiness from Mason. She communicates well with people and she always manages to charm people with her smile. She has changed a lot since she's a teenager. I let her have fun while she's young, and that, I suppose is the most important part of her life who has let her find her true self, in order to be who she wants to be and be happy with her own choice.

Odetta graduated from the university yesterday. She took Medical Science at Sims Uni and graduated with a Magna cum Laude. She's devastated that she's actually 0,1 point behind the Summa cum Laude. But Mason calmed her down. It's not what she's supposed to go after. It's what substance she has a person and what value she could bring for her surrounding, as well as for this legacy to carry on with.

This is our house now. It is filled with 7 people. It's merry, it's crowded, it's full of laughter and sadness. We have grown so much memory into this place. Nadine is now a beautiful housewife who takes care of her own family. I am going to retire soon from my job. I guess this is it. This is where my chapter will end, and my dearest Odetta will carry on for me.

Chapter 2.21

Another year has passed. Odelia has grown into a beautiful toddler too. She reminds me so much of little Odetta. Being close in age gap, Odelia and Ocean are practically like twins. The other day I decided to take those two bundles out for shopping and people kept pointing at them saying "Twins!" and they couldn't resist themselves pinching their cheeks.

Though Ocean is tad older, it seems like Odelia does take care more of him rather than he does of her. Soooo cute! "Ocean, you can't eat that. Mommy won't be happy." and other stuffs like that. Do check out their photos. I had to take pictures discreetly because Odelia really doesn't like camera.

Chapter 2.20

Happy full month baby, Ocean!! It's so fast now that 1 month has just passed like that! And good news good news! Nadine and is pregnant again!! Sheepishly enough, she told me, "Well it's kind of an accident." Oh weeeeellllll! We do love babies!!!! I'm so happy to welcome one more now.

I'm still so jealous of Nadine because she always stays pretty throughout all her pregnancy. A klutz that she is, she still carries the sweet look of a mom with her whenever wherever. I suppose that's why her husband loves her truly truly much. Haha! And again, Mason nudged me to have another baby ourselves too. I slammed him a big NO. Having a whiny Ocean *okay excuse me* is already more than merry in this house. And soon we're having another new tiny little creature. Hmm!

Oh btw, in conjunction with Ocean's full month birthday, my daughter Odetta also celebrated her 16th birthday today. I told her she could do whatever she wants with her life now, so long as it carries a substance and purpose. She's 16. Time to find an identity already, right? Happy birthday too, sweetheart!

Chapter 2.19

As I'm typing this, tears are running down my face. I was sitting down sipping my tea this morning then there's just this gush of feeling that flushed all over my memory. It just seems like everything happened so fast that I don't have the luxury time to catch up with. It feels like we just lost dad even before all the cold wars were settled down, then now mom's gone, and my baby Odetta has grown into a teenager now? It's all happening so fast that it's creeping me out.

I'm just afraid if I hadn't done things that I was supposed to do in order to let Ods grow up with full of nourishment and love only a mother can give. Looking back at the journal that Mom kept when she's raising both Nadine and I, I couldn't help feeling what a bad mom I have been. I have let my kid walking alone home, either it's rain or shine. I haven't really read any storybook to her. I haven't really seen her grown up… Gosh… Would she ever forgive me?

Chapter 2.18

Last night at about 4am I heard lotsa noise from Nadine's room. I quickly rushed out to see what happened. I knew it's about anytime now she's going to deliver the little bundle of joy, but having said that, I needed to ensure my little sister was going to be all safe and sound first. I quickly woke Mason up to drive us all to the hospital. And being a lucky and easy lady she is, she delivered the baby at super ease that I were so jealous of. It's baby boy. And she decided to name him Ocean. Ocean Chopin :)

Nadine's quite a klutz, and she didn't bother to read up the pregger book. Ended up that I need to carry Ocean more than she did for the first night! Yawn!

Chapter 2.17

At last, Nadine popped the news. She's pregnant. Yippee yay yay!!!!! I'm gonna be an aunt. How exciting. And I must say she's a pretty glowing mommy-to-be. Now there are only the 5 of us living in the home. It's pretty amazing that Mason could get along with anyone at ease. Nadine seemed to be able to listen to Mason's advice on pregnancy more than she did of me. LOL. But I'm so glad that all's well with her now, though sometimes she said she still missed mom.

Odetta, my baby girl is now a very independent girl. She would do things on her own when neither Mason or I is at home having a look after her. She would walk home from school too, if she happens to miss the schoolbus. Her report card is showing pretty good mark too actually. I think I won't be anymore prouder than I am of her.