Chapter 5.25

Being pregnant with 2 little kids at home... hmmm. But I still call myself lucky because I don't have to work hard. I have a wonderful husband who provides everything we ever need. :)

Rams is a big time artist. Now that he's shifted to the room next to ours, guess what's the first thing he requested for? An easel! My baby is now growing into a big boy! He draws practically anything that comes to mind... while Russ... Russ is as chilly as ever... he's the quiet type, more like Is than me.

We haven't got any gender check for the twins yet, we want them as surprise. Well it's magical... and I certainly won't mind doing this again and again.

Okay gotta go... Gotta feed Russ.

Chapter 5.24

Finding out baby #3


So last week after my last posting, I threw up magically for 3 times in 1 hour. The night before we had raw tuna for dinner (or sasheemee, as the Sapanese calls it). But I didn't suspect anything except that, after the unpredicted future turbulence that we've been through. I started not being able to take any dinner that night.  I really thought it's a bad food poisoning that I was having. Is was of course forcing me to go to the doctor, but I didn't want to.

The next day, while sitting for breakfast with Rams, he suddenly blurted out what he's recently learnt at school about shapes. "Mommy you're round." I was startled. I couldn't have picked up any weight while busy with the kids. Moreover I flied to Saris quite a few times to take care of mom. My suspicion of being preggo started to rise. To be honest I have lost count of when this baby could have been conceived. But, pfuh, I took out the last 3 testpack from my cabinet. And I said to myself, whatever it is, I wouldn't be disappointed.

5...4...3..2..1....... It showed negative. I didn't bother to take out the next or next next testpack. It'd be the same, my heart said. Despite the umpteenth time let down by the testpack, I still couldn't help feeling my heart sink whenever I saw it showed no positive sign. I don't know why. Maybe I've just really not given up yet.

That evening, while Is was doing his duty to throw away the bins, he noticed my testpack in the toilet! Gosh I totally forgot to throw away that properly. No, I didn't want him to know and disappoint him too. We've kinda not wanted to talk about it... Then he confronted me, "Honey, is there something wrong with ur health recently?" Then I started telling him everything, and couldn't help but to cry a little bit.

But he said he had this strong gutfeel that we might be pregnant for real this time. Because he noticed that my mood hasn't been at its best... so I agreed to his suggestion to visit the doctor (just a doctor not an obgyn) first thing in the morning the next day. He agreed to take a day off just to take me there too, because in case if it's not a baby thing, I might be real sick too - looking at how many times i've puked in few days.

At the hospital, I was 'forced' to go for an ultrasound because doctor "suspected that there's something in there." How scary has that sounded, you tell me! It could be a malignant tumour or something. Gosh. And then...

We heard heartbeat, the heartbeat that we'd been so familiar with. :) We both teared. Good news is, there might be a chance of twin babies too! Wheeeeee.... :) At that time, I totally forgot about wanting it as a girl or a boy, as long as he/she/they are healthy and complete in there.

We came back bringing that news to the boys... of course they don't understand. But we're gonna be a huge family from now on!!!!!

Chapter 5.23

Hi peeps... long time no update. I've been busy keeping up with the two kids. Now that Rams is almost going to enter primary school, everything starts to get busier. Is there already a third kid? Nope. We've been trying with all methods and myths, nothing worked out. Sighs.

But we're not giving up yet... meanwhile I'm just trying to concentrate on my housewife-ing task and bringing Rams up to my very best. Is is entering a dusk age and I'm not getting younger either... it may just be hard biologically. I haven't thought of how I'm gonna sort this out, but I'm sure everything's gonna be alright...

How's Russ? Russ has been awesome and smart. He picks up what his brother does really fast. It's kind of worrying sometimes when he tries to speak like "what the bark is that, mom?" pointing to a tree... i really thought he's talking about the 'bark'. Hmmm.

so people, what are your tips in conceiving a girl? 

Chapter 5.22

We are proud to announce the birth of our second son: RUSS CHOPIN.

The labour was supremely easy for me, almost zen-like. Thank goodness Russ is a healthy happy baby. Unlike Rams, he has a fair skin. Healthy and handsome.

As I finished my last push, what Is blurted out was "Oh well honey... seems like we're going to try harder next time, huh?"

:) :) :)

Here you go a picture of Russ... with Rams inside the nursery I dreamt of. The doctor shared some tips to conceive a girl. We shall see how well it works out!! ;)

EEeeeek. We need another nursery room, seems like!

Chapter 5.21

But of course even the flowers will wilt. Is and I are back in row since we discussed about the sleeping arrangement for the new baby. I would love him/her to sleep with Rams, which also means forking out some moolah to build the nursery room. I think that'd be good for the kids to sleep together, it leaves them room to bond. But on the logical side of Is' head, that not only means forking out money to build the room and stuffs, but will also drain more of our energy (especially of his) to having to watch out to the kids' cryings/calls anytime in the mid of the night. I'm a terrible mother when it comes to keeping a watch when already asleep. Meh...

It's not easy really... once you get married, u're just flooded with... *beep*. Fortunately though I'm blessed with a loving husband. Seeing me frowning for one week is enough to bring him down. He decided to build up the nursery. Yipee!!

Chapter 5.20

Doctor confirmed my pregnancy. I couldn't keep a secret more than a day, so I really needed to take Is and begged for his second chance. Afterall we still have another 7 months to mend everything back to where we were. But he totally couldn't picture any better picture... sighs... which got us into a row.

me: Whatever it is, Is, this is our baby and I'm keeping it.
Is: It is easy for you to say but if you remember how much it cost us to have Ramstadt, I thought u'd be more understanding, at least this time. We can always have babies anytime we want.
me: You're growing old... soon a senior next year... and I need to have a daughter to keep this pact alive. I know it's gonna be tough, at least for now, but we'll survive.
Is: *walks away*

 

I think that's our first major row ever. I felt so sick and so terrible for the whole day after he left for work. Pregnant, sick, a quite bratty son. But Rams totally made my day in the afternoon... he could do his own potty now! That's a huge relief and we could save so much on diapers already... Throughout that afternoon I talked to mom. She took a day off so that she could console me via chatrooms. She understood the motherly feeling towards the seedlings inside... it must be hard to give up. She said if financial wise it's giving us too much a hard time, she's willing to sell off her Bistro and give us the fund. I felt so touched and I really wanted to give her a hug at that moment. 

At that moment too, I felt really useless being a woman with no career at all and having to depend on solely my husband. I wish I made another choice... It's suicidal, i must tell you. January couldn't come today cos she had a plan... 

Is came home bringing a good news, one of his proposals was bought by the client. That couldn't really help much but that meant a lot to him, it gave him hopes again. When he reached home he apologized for being so unthoughtful in the morning and started to ask about little baby... :) My sickness felt lifted off.

Chapter 5.19

I've been ill for the past 3 days now... Is is so much worried that i could be pregnant again but I tried to console him that i couldn't be so cos I've been so tired taking care of Rams. Rams is still on his sleep-during-the-day mode that it's really not helping me to recover. Sighs. A worried and stressed husband + a bratty kid... *_*

I tried to fish Is' reaction about me being pregnant again. I mean, I really look forward to having a daughter, at the end of the day, 'cos I wanna keep this pact alive. But he threw me such a harsh reaction, "Sorry honey but I think we might give this embryo up for this time." I'm tremendously saddened. I'll need to go to the doctor tomorrow, for sure. I can take this day off 'cos January is willing to babysit Rams. Isaiah hardly has a time off now, not even on weekends. :(