Chapter 3.15

I feel like having such a horrible life.

Robi's ex-wife phoned us this morning. He said she's just dropping a call to say hi and let him know how their daughter is doing in college now. Just that?, I asked. "Yes, honey."

And the next thing I knew is Polly started crying non-stoply again from her crib. And Robi being there was just not helping at all. I've decided that we need to hire a babysitter this time, well a replacement for Robi's task in being a father, to be more precise. He obviously couldn't say anything but "But last time with Alison everything's fine." Alison is his daughter with his ex-wife.

And the snob of the house turned 21 today. Happy birthday my cousin Odelia.

She invited all of her (obese) friends and I'm thanking her for the all-nighter party that caused Polly to cry and scream and couldn't sleep for the whole night.

And also her most favorite snobbish look of the year.

Chapter 3.14

I've been complaining a lot to my mother that Robi can't make a good father afterall. If he's not making Polly cry, he's making her grumpy. Not sure if it's the way he holds her, or the not-delicate words that he uses wrongly to Polly. Mother told me that it's actually very unnatural as a father is supposedly to love the daughter more than a mother does. But that could be just another old wives' tale. I told her that's it. It's my one and only child ever.

Or -- not. This morning mother told me that she saw a 'rubber' left lying on her favorite sofa. I told her whoopsie we're too naughty and tired last night. After the whole drama of Robi won't make a good father, we screamed at each other, but we also made up, sexily. Heh.

"But it's broken, honey. Didn't you tell me that it's going to be your last child ever?"

*and my brain screamed in its utmost horror*

Chapter 3.13

Mother had a quarrel with Odelia this afternoon.

"Delia" is how she's used to calling her. To mother, Odelia has been more than just a niece. She did nurture her a lot when she's a baby, and she paid for all her schoolfee when she grew up. In short, she's half my sister, that's how she's treated her.

This morning, mother was just casually teasing her why she's been painting 'gloomy' art. Not sure if it's just her hormone acting up, "just shut up, Nala. For once please let me do my own thing, okay please?"

Knowing my mother, she certainly wouldn't give up when something's not right. "Excuse me, Delia? What did you just say? Is this what I've grown you into? Could you please for once look at me when I'm talking to you?"

"Yeah, and what now? You're not happy with me? I can leave this place as and when you like, Nala. I'm sorry but I can't fulfill your dream to be like your doctor daughter who got herself pregnant with don't-know-who."

"ODELIA! Please watch your mouth!", says mom. Then Odelia ran away and stayed at her friend's place. In midnight she came back, just like how she's always done.

Gees, now what if mother really asks me what she had just said if it's true. Damn!

Chapter 3.12

It's a girl! Decided to call her Polly Chopin.

Robi had been with me throughout the whole delivery. I was passing motion then I felt my water broke! But he insisted me to remain calm. He drove me to the hospital, and within an hour, Polly was born. Yes, that easy.

Mother is so happy, and so is her uncle Ocean too

Robi and I always take turn to take care of her at night. She's so like my mother, the stern and stubborn one! Gees. Not sure where it comes from.

Chapter 3.11

Robi found a job! Yay yay! He's accepted to work in the Law Enforcement field. Good! :) Every afternoon he will make a cup of tea for me to sip, bring me books, and try to chill together with me. Every night before we get to sleep, he will always talks to my tummy, advising the little one inside to behave while mommy's sleeping. So this is what future mommies feel like. Kind of good :)

I've been told to get a rest from my workplace, because it's just really about anytime now. Doctor said my pregnancy has been very smooth, because I've always exercised whenever I could. He said this could really help to smoothen the delivery later on.

Alrighty... we're off to buy a crib now! Just me and my husband, Robi! :)

Chapter 3.10

I'm ultra happy as I've just found out my bestfriend, Lillian is also pregnant! And we're both 2 months along! We can't stop kidding each other we'll be seeing each other's faces while we're "pushing and blowing" inside the delivery room. Hahaha!

But she's one lucky woman. She's married to the Landgaarb who's notoriously wealthy, and most importantly is she is deeply in love with the man she married. Good for her.

She knows well what I'm going through, afterall she's been my bestfriend eversince we stepped in college. She told me to learn how to let go and I must start anew. John is seeing her little sister, by the way, and she kind of leaked it to me that they're breaking up and he is moving overseas to start a clean slate. Again, I don't know how I should react. I could only wish time could be turned back before I had any seedling inside of me, even way before I knew Robi.

"But honey, you guys are not gonna work it out anyway. He's such a jerk and you're not. Everybody knows that. You're such a fine and articulate woman who only deserves all the good things in the world that he won't be able to provide. Odetta, come on. You're married. Enjoy your marriage." - she told me.

"Lil, you won't know how hard it has been for me. He's my first love. I did many things together first times with him. Yes he hurt me along the way, but I'm still the happiest to be with him."

She could only shake her head.

Chapter 3.9

The morning sickness has started to kick in. Every morning when I wake up I will throw up so badly. And I will need to standby all sorts of snacks inside my bag wherever I go. Gees only had I know pregnancy is so suffocating... But doctor advised that this should be bad for only the first trimester.

Robi gave me a little sort of good news. He told me he would find job. I took the chance to explain to him how important a job to us will be. Our baby will not be fed only by breastmilk. He too will grow into a toddler who will soon need some sort of nutrition beneficial for his growth. Not to mention babysitter. Not to mention daycare, childcare, etc. We shall prepare for rainy days...

As advised by the doctor too, I've been exercising a lot. Lucky my mother managed to build a little gym room at the back of the house. She's been my bestfriend. To her I've always consulted all my pregnancy problems.

 

"I can't believe you're such a grown up lady now, Odetta. And how lucky you are that you've found your the one and build a family together with him."

If only you knew, mother...