Chapter 5.34

Rosie is a lovely girl, happy most of the times and eat a lot ALL THE TIMES.

Hard working, downright perfectionist, stubborn, hardcore musician, that's all that she is.

Oh also a mischief to all of her brothers.

Chapter 5.33

Pardon me for the long long disappearance. It's been a long winding road since my last post - aka Rosie's birth. Rosie is well into her toddler-hood now, but we'd lost Is just few weeks after Rosie's born :( sudden heart attack grabbed away the man I most love in my life...

On the other hand, there's another addition (again) in our life. Alice was apparently pregnant just few months after I found out about mine, which explained the urgency to get hitched. Now I have a grand daughter of my own, yea that felt a lot like double bonus! Her name is Daisy and they stay with us. Rams has graduated from high school and now working part time as a painter & fast food cook. While Alice is at home most of the times, if she's not out singing for events. Actually that's a blessing in disguise, with my old age catching up, I have too much to look after.

Remi & Rob are sent to preschool every morning by Rams. Russ luckily is a high-roller in school. I just don't need to worry much about him =)

Chapter 5.32

Our long-awaited one is finally here. Say hello to Rosie Chopin. Delivering Rosie has gotta be the toughest one ever, but definitely worth the wait. The Chopins finally has someone to carry on the legacy. :))

Rosie came out like a baby rock star. Why? She SCREAMED like there's no tomorrow and one doctor wasn't enough to carry her out. That's right, she's HUGE and it's rather complicated to pull her out. Ha ha ha :')

She's very welcomed in the family. Alice did come over to say hi, that's my daughter in law to be we're talking about! Eeeps. Rams casually dropped a hint that they've been planning for the big day and it's probably coming up very soon. (seriously what's with the urge?!)

Chapter 5.31

My twins reached their first year milestone today! Rob & Remi are Tom & Jerry, Fire & Water, Yin & Yang, Ice Cream & Deep Fried. Rob talks like nobody's business. Remi is quiet most of the times, but when he screams out loud... OH LORD. None of my other boys is as powerful as he is. Rob loves meat, Remi inhales veggies. I don't know what went wrong, really. It's almost impossible to feed or clothe them as though they're twins. *inhales exhales*

My Is has become a wonderful work-at-home father. Yes, did mention 'work' because he still has to oversee some of his investments via the computer. With my heavy preggo tummy it's a miracle to have someone at dispose to take care of my daily needs. Heehee.

Okay time to nap. This tired preggo woman is.... _-_ *falls flat*

Chapter 5.30

My pregnancy is pretty full-on this time. Despite the much rest that I've been taking, I keep feeling lethargic everyday, unlike when I was pregnant with my previous boys. Tending to my garden feels so much like a chore, when it's supposed to calm me down. Is this new addition gonna be a rock star or something?

Watching my twins grow up is a joy nonetheless. With his old age catching up, Is has finally decided to retire and help me watch over the kids at home. How are we going to live? Thank God that Is grew a lot of investments since he's young, and besides, Ramsy is going to start work next month. He finally proposed to Alice. We don't really object to that, knowing that Alice is a sweet girl, but it's just their young age that worries us by a lot. Could Ramsy be just another young boy who's naively swooned by the honeymoon period? Hope not!

We went baby shopping this early afternoon and found this crib. You might start asking why it's red in color, because the doctor just revealed the sex of the baby. Yep, it's finally a GIRL!!!!! I hope the doctor was right. Because this could've meant a lot! Ramsy kindly contributed two names already, either "Rosie" or "Rachel". I think both are cute =)

Chapter 5.29

We're back from our trip! It's been lovely and totally refreshing. And it's Russ' birthday on the day we got back! Yayyyy. We bought his favorite cake and celebrated just amongst us (cos we're still recovering from jetlag). While having our cakes, he said, "Mom, do you know Alice? She's been here a lot when grandma's not around... is she a stranger or someone of our relatives?"

Russ is a bit chatty just like Rob, but I love how he could feed me information in proper sentence. Anyway. Alice coming over huh. When grandma's not around! How sneaky! So I confronted Rams thereafter.

Rams: Alice is my girlfriend...
Me: You know that you have to work hard because you're going to college soon! I don't like your girl coming over sneakily...
Rams: Who told you this? Russ? Grandma?
Me: It doesn't matter! You can bring her over here and introduce her to us, maximum once a week! Now's the time for you to concentrate on your study and pick the college and major you want.
Rams: You know what mom? I'm probably skipping college just like you did. I wanna marry her and start my own painting business.
Me: What???!
Rams: You heard me right mom. She's a lovely girl and she...
Me: Is she pregnant?
Rams: No mom I swear. We haven't done anything she's innocent and so am I.
Me: Bring her to us this weekend.

So Alice came during the weekend. Seems nice, but really young. Barely 17! I'm just afraid that they're too in love without realizing what is lying in front of them. After she left, the three of us had the conversation.

Is: Rams, we're against you getting married anytime soon. It's just not right, Alice is barely 17!
Rams: What do you know dad? You failed your marriage once!
Is: RAMSTADT!
Rams: I really love her, okay dad? I've barely had any attention from both of you, Alice has been taking care of me a lot! All you're about is another baby girl another sister! The hell with it! Aren't the four of us enough already?
Me: Ramsy you HAVE TO understand! We have a legacy to continue here.
Rams: Legacy? Without caring what actually matters more here mom? Really?
Is: Don't talk to your mom like that Ramstadt! We will not be supportive no matter what. If you really have to marry at such young age, please go ahead because we have no more space for you and your future family, nor the money.

And Ramsy just walked away... Too much for a jetlagged pregnant woman to take, really... Shits always happened when I'm pregnant...

Chapter 5.28

People talk! OMG people talk about our family! This morning Is brought me to the hospital early for a check up before our trip. But he had to come out first to get something in the car, and he overheard 'so Is..... a new young girl ...... pregnant? Poor Quincey and the four kiddos...' Seriously people need a life outside! I haven't been active in the community for a while now, people must be thinking I'm only aging at home with 4 kids that make my life topsy turvy. Oh well well well!

What do they know? I have a brilliant life! So I've been 12 weeks along now (hm yes.) with such a breeze! Even I couldn't tell that I've been pregnant at all. With that, it means I'm all safe to travel now! Woohoo! Remi has his stranger anxiety back this morning. He cried like a thunder despite the so many cajoling efforts we put into. Sighs... Gonna do some more training before we leave him with mom.

Rams has been seeing the girl a lot. He's been coming home in the evening every time. Gosh this is worrying me. Is finally had a word with him and being a sensitive boy that he is, he chooses to skip dinner and bury himself in the room since. Jees... I really need the break. Trust that when I come back all will be well... Rob is totally funny with all his words. I taught him some functional words today and he turned it into something unbelievable. It may sound funny to me now, not sure in the near future.

I said: Grab the fork.
Rob said: What the fock.

Oh. my. pop.

Chapter 5.28

"Hey mom! You're finally sitting down eating cake!", Russ said this morning. Trust that Russ will be world's most intelligent detective! Hahaha... but it's true. I haven't felt this peaceful for a really long time. Thank God for mom. She's finally here grabbing both little ones off Is & my hands. Phew!

Actually, Is and I are back to the pregnancy scare stage right now... I haven't really been feeling well lately, again. Well not to say that it'll be surprise if it really is happening again, we're casual. But our trip is in front of our eyes!!! We are taking half a month off to Saris for a little while because Is just so happens is gonna have a one-day meeting there. I can't wait to break off from my life here a little while... bummed out. Anyway... some shots of Remi and Rob...

Remi when he's being wonderful. Here's shot of him playing with grandma...

Rob is such a talker! Give him a word and he'll be able to spin you around.

Love my boys a lot but mama needs a break too :) Last night Is and I were casually discussing that we might want to look at renovating our house since eventually we're adding more people into it. Now there are six of us... and we're definitely going for a girl, though still not sure when. That means more money arckkkkk!!!!!

Chapter 5.27

I was skimming through the archive of my journal and boy didn't I realize everything has been about my pregnancIES! I have totally forgotten how to live - enjoying the crisp air while tending to our garden, sipping coffee at the nearby diner, having date with Is, helping Rams and Russ with their homeworks... ahhh..!!!

But here's the good news. My mom just told me that she's visiting us here next week for a full whole month!! While I'm not sure how Remi would react to her, but I'm putting high faith that she will be able to handle her own grandson. I seriously couldn't be anymore thankful for my mom. She's just the world's most amazing mom one could ever have... and her life is all about the inspiration for myself.

BTW, I've been hearing here and there that Rams is currently seeing a girl in his school named Alice. :) I'm so excited for him though I'm not sure if i should approve of it yet? Rams is rather emotional I'm kinda scared if he will get too serious with this girl. I wouldn't mind seeing her nonetheless.

Chapter 5.26

Long time no post. Coping with 2 twin boys + 1 boy + 1 teenager is just not easy I tell you! Each one of them has a kind of tantrum to throw and basically I need to run here and there to get my things done. *phew*

Our twin boys are absolutely adorable, delivered through c-section. Please meet Remi and Rob. Remi & Rob here is the world who's been reading mommy's journal. Remi is older than Rob, but has a much more 'adventurous' trait - he absolutely rebels a lot and has a typical stranger anxiety to deal with! Sighs... That explains why that even at their age of 2 years old, we're still in big consideration to try for a girl. Getting a helper isn't the best idea for now - Remi is way too rebellious and besides it's dragging us financially. But Rob... he is magical. Quite strange, no? Two people who grew up together in one mommy's tummy with two total opposite traits. :) They love to talk to each other, in their baby-ish lingo of course. Sometimes I really wish I could understand what it is they're thinking of...

Is has been a good active daddy. He's closer to Ramsay than anyone else - especially when I get mad running around the house with one or two babies in my arms screaming at everybody :D Russ also seems closer to Ramsay - dunno why, probably Ramsay has that special calm leader charisma being the eldest in the family. Who could've thought I'd be this major housewife? It's been nothing but fun!

Chapter 5.25

Being pregnant with 2 little kids at home... hmmm. But I still call myself lucky because I don't have to work hard. I have a wonderful husband who provides everything we ever need. :)

Rams is a big time artist. Now that he's shifted to the room next to ours, guess what's the first thing he requested for? An easel! My baby is now growing into a big boy! He draws practically anything that comes to mind... while Russ... Russ is as chilly as ever... he's the quiet type, more like Is than me.

We haven't got any gender check for the twins yet, we want them as surprise. Well it's magical... and I certainly won't mind doing this again and again.

Okay gotta go... Gotta feed Russ.

Chapter 5.24

Finding out baby #3


So last week after my last posting, I threw up magically for 3 times in 1 hour. The night before we had raw tuna for dinner (or sasheemee, as the Sapanese calls it). But I didn't suspect anything except that, after the unpredicted future turbulence that we've been through. I started not being able to take any dinner that night.  I really thought it's a bad food poisoning that I was having. Is was of course forcing me to go to the doctor, but I didn't want to.

The next day, while sitting for breakfast with Rams, he suddenly blurted out what he's recently learnt at school about shapes. "Mommy you're round." I was startled. I couldn't have picked up any weight while busy with the kids. Moreover I flied to Saris quite a few times to take care of mom. My suspicion of being preggo started to rise. To be honest I have lost count of when this baby could have been conceived. But, pfuh, I took out the last 3 testpack from my cabinet. And I said to myself, whatever it is, I wouldn't be disappointed.

5...4...3..2..1....... It showed negative. I didn't bother to take out the next or next next testpack. It'd be the same, my heart said. Despite the umpteenth time let down by the testpack, I still couldn't help feeling my heart sink whenever I saw it showed no positive sign. I don't know why. Maybe I've just really not given up yet.

That evening, while Is was doing his duty to throw away the bins, he noticed my testpack in the toilet! Gosh I totally forgot to throw away that properly. No, I didn't want him to know and disappoint him too. We've kinda not wanted to talk about it... Then he confronted me, "Honey, is there something wrong with ur health recently?" Then I started telling him everything, and couldn't help but to cry a little bit.

But he said he had this strong gutfeel that we might be pregnant for real this time. Because he noticed that my mood hasn't been at its best... so I agreed to his suggestion to visit the doctor (just a doctor not an obgyn) first thing in the morning the next day. He agreed to take a day off just to take me there too, because in case if it's not a baby thing, I might be real sick too - looking at how many times i've puked in few days.

At the hospital, I was 'forced' to go for an ultrasound because doctor "suspected that there's something in there." How scary has that sounded, you tell me! It could be a malignant tumour or something. Gosh. And then...

We heard heartbeat, the heartbeat that we'd been so familiar with. :) We both teared. Good news is, there might be a chance of twin babies too! Wheeeeee.... :) At that time, I totally forgot about wanting it as a girl or a boy, as long as he/she/they are healthy and complete in there.

We came back bringing that news to the boys... of course they don't understand. But we're gonna be a huge family from now on!!!!!

Chapter 5.23

Hi peeps... long time no update. I've been busy keeping up with the two kids. Now that Rams is almost going to enter primary school, everything starts to get busier. Is there already a third kid? Nope. We've been trying with all methods and myths, nothing worked out. Sighs.

But we're not giving up yet... meanwhile I'm just trying to concentrate on my housewife-ing task and bringing Rams up to my very best. Is is entering a dusk age and I'm not getting younger either... it may just be hard biologically. I haven't thought of how I'm gonna sort this out, but I'm sure everything's gonna be alright...

How's Russ? Russ has been awesome and smart. He picks up what his brother does really fast. It's kind of worrying sometimes when he tries to speak like "what the bark is that, mom?" pointing to a tree... i really thought he's talking about the 'bark'. Hmmm.

so people, what are your tips in conceiving a girl? 

Chapter 5.22

We are proud to announce the birth of our second son: RUSS CHOPIN.

The labour was supremely easy for me, almost zen-like. Thank goodness Russ is a healthy happy baby. Unlike Rams, he has a fair skin. Healthy and handsome.

As I finished my last push, what Is blurted out was "Oh well honey... seems like we're going to try harder next time, huh?"

:) :) :)

Here you go a picture of Russ... with Rams inside the nursery I dreamt of. The doctor shared some tips to conceive a girl. We shall see how well it works out!! ;)

EEeeeek. We need another nursery room, seems like!

Chapter 5.21

But of course even the flowers will wilt. Is and I are back in row since we discussed about the sleeping arrangement for the new baby. I would love him/her to sleep with Rams, which also means forking out some moolah to build the nursery room. I think that'd be good for the kids to sleep together, it leaves them room to bond. But on the logical side of Is' head, that not only means forking out money to build the room and stuffs, but will also drain more of our energy (especially of his) to having to watch out to the kids' cryings/calls anytime in the mid of the night. I'm a terrible mother when it comes to keeping a watch when already asleep. Meh...

It's not easy really... once you get married, u're just flooded with... *beep*. Fortunately though I'm blessed with a loving husband. Seeing me frowning for one week is enough to bring him down. He decided to build up the nursery. Yipee!!

Chapter 5.20

Doctor confirmed my pregnancy. I couldn't keep a secret more than a day, so I really needed to take Is and begged for his second chance. Afterall we still have another 7 months to mend everything back to where we were. But he totally couldn't picture any better picture... sighs... which got us into a row.

me: Whatever it is, Is, this is our baby and I'm keeping it.
Is: It is easy for you to say but if you remember how much it cost us to have Ramstadt, I thought u'd be more understanding, at least this time. We can always have babies anytime we want.
me: You're growing old... soon a senior next year... and I need to have a daughter to keep this pact alive. I know it's gonna be tough, at least for now, but we'll survive.
Is: *walks away*

 

I think that's our first major row ever. I felt so sick and so terrible for the whole day after he left for work. Pregnant, sick, a quite bratty son. But Rams totally made my day in the afternoon... he could do his own potty now! That's a huge relief and we could save so much on diapers already... Throughout that afternoon I talked to mom. She took a day off so that she could console me via chatrooms. She understood the motherly feeling towards the seedlings inside... it must be hard to give up. She said if financial wise it's giving us too much a hard time, she's willing to sell off her Bistro and give us the fund. I felt so touched and I really wanted to give her a hug at that moment. 

At that moment too, I felt really useless being a woman with no career at all and having to depend on solely my husband. I wish I made another choice... It's suicidal, i must tell you. January couldn't come today cos she had a plan... 

Is came home bringing a good news, one of his proposals was bought by the client. That couldn't really help much but that meant a lot to him, it gave him hopes again. When he reached home he apologized for being so unthoughtful in the morning and started to ask about little baby... :) My sickness felt lifted off.

Chapter 5.19

I've been ill for the past 3 days now... Is is so much worried that i could be pregnant again but I tried to console him that i couldn't be so cos I've been so tired taking care of Rams. Rams is still on his sleep-during-the-day mode that it's really not helping me to recover. Sighs. A worried and stressed husband + a bratty kid... *_*

I tried to fish Is' reaction about me being pregnant again. I mean, I really look forward to having a daughter, at the end of the day, 'cos I wanna keep this pact alive. But he threw me such a harsh reaction, "Sorry honey but I think we might give this embryo up for this time." I'm tremendously saddened. I'll need to go to the doctor tomorrow, for sure. I can take this day off 'cos January is willing to babysit Rams. Isaiah hardly has a time off now, not even on weekends. :(

Chapter 5.18

Quinn somehow refused to come back. She has decided to become a full-time homemaker in Saris. With her son's condition of being slightly mild autistic, I think that's the best decision too. Is is still disappointed, regardless of how many times I told him that everything's gonna be okay. No business will ever cruise smoothly.

Rams makes me into a sleep deprived mother. He chooses to be awake at night and completely silent during the day. Awesome much indeed. Except that the neighbor's house being renovated, I can listen to every vivid movement of the workers planking and screaming. Uggggh!

Mom has gone back to Saris this morning. Aunt Persey plans to come to help me but I'd rather her not to since Quinn's baby might probably needs more hands than mine does. It's tough alright but I'm thankful that January is willing to come in after her school to keep an eye on Rams while I try to catch some sleep. Glad that she can accept me as his father's wife... I think i'm falling sick... The day started with some vomitting. Anything I put in just automatically rejected itself out. *turningintozombie*

Chapter 5.17

Our little bud is born today... Ramstadt Chopin. He's quite a steady baby but he needs to be fed A LOT that the nurses start to worry this baby might grow obese. Heeheeheeheehee. Daddy has been taking care a lot of him cos mommy wants to rest. This is definitely a handful... Is wants as many kids as possible... I think I want to stop after having 2, perhaps. So I'm really relaly hoping my second one will be a girl. (Don't tell Is).

But I dont think we'll be adding anytime soon. Is' business is not doing as well as it used to at the moment. One of the shareholders suddenly decided to back out and start another one with their competitor. How shallow!! Grrrr. Seems like all he's after is just the money. Is might look at asking Quinn to come back because she's the best negotiator. But that would probably take effect only next year after Quinn's bud is born. 

Chapter 5.16

Entering the third trimester is... phew. I start to discover many more discomfort nowadays, but still totally enjoying it. Is and me agree not to find out the gender till he or she arrives. *so excited* So in anticipation, we decorated the nursery room in green. I of course want a girl... someone to go shopping with *winks* and Is is totally anticipating for a boy. Hahaha. Whatever it is we're enjoying this very much. Mom is flying back next week to start taking care of me and teaching me things i wouldn't know how to do. I will definitely need her anyway.

January has also been quite a help lately. In times when she finishes her class early, she would swing by bringing me some food to eat. She also told me that she's been seeing a guy lately... Seems like Is will be expecting not only another kid, but also grandkid! Wait, that translates me becoming a granny too, doesn't it. :o

Okay... time to rest... Expected delivery date is next Wednesday. I can't wait, little one.